day two. my loveee.

Day Two.

My Crush.


Thomaryanklem<3


I don't have a crush, I have the most amazing boyfrenn in the entire world. he is so special to me, i love him more to anything. he is always there for me no matter what the situation i can count on him. he lets me act silly and dumb and he still smiles at me and tells me he loves me. :) i like that we can just lay around and watch movies and we still have fun together.
ilovetommybecause, he lets me drag him to dumb movies, holds me when i cry, cheers me up when i'm down, lets me talk to him in my baby voice, saves me from making bad choices, holds me tight when we hug, kisses better then anyone else in the world, tells me he loves me constantly, takes silly pictures with silly effects with me, listens when i complain, puts up with my bitch moods, kisses my head when it hurts, looks into my eyes and smiles, goes to sex stores with me ;), cares about me 110% of the time, wears silly man rings, buys me pretty things, wears twilight necklaces with corny lines on them, lets me do his hair [:, touches me inappropriately, gossips with me about bitches, and because he calls me lovemuffin<3, and so much more. :)

i love you baybeedoll[:
Always and forever.



lovezzzz.
-Alisha<3

Day One.

Day One- My Bestfriend.

LANNA HORNY!

This is my bestfrann. :)
I love her lots and lots because we like to sit at two person date tables, spin around, dance to silly songs, race in pools, cuddle, talk to strangers in a sexual manner, watch movies involving horny gay boys or biting chickens heads off, make forts, drink ohjay and crown ;), go shopping, touch every piece of clothing we find pretty, run from our problems, talk shit in Brooke's room, talk about being racist, fuck with bitches on Formspring, make list we won't ever keep, and talk shit on Modern Warefare 2. ;D
She is the bestest friend a gurl could ask for, and I love her even though she's fakeeeeee! [:

Your my favoritest I ever seeen!



lovezzz.
-Alisha<3

30 days.

Day 1 — Your Best Friend Day

Day 2 — Your Crush Day

Day 3 — Your parents Day

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

something.

dear world,

i'm gonna do this thing where i don't talk to anyone.
something is off and i need a break.
i need an escape from everyone.

if i don't text you back, don't call you back.
i'm sorry.

i just need some time.

i'm to emotional to talk to people right now.

bye.

lovezzzz.
-Alisha<3

your cover melting inside, with wide eyes you tremble.

dear world,

this blog is going to be in many parts and prolly be very long.

partone. last night.


i had an amazing day yesterday.
i got to spend time with my love and just hang out and watch a movie and listen to music.
it was on of those nice chill days where things just feel nice.
we went to southlands and hung out with andy and it was amazing to meet him.
he is so amazing an so funny an sweet. :)
i felt really happy to meet him.
he's definitely someone i could see myself hanging out with more often.

part two. last night after chipotle.

im sorry we had a misunderstanding.
i told you we could hang out.
i told you i would meet you.
but no. you got so emotional.
you went out and got drunk.
you scream at me and tell me to fuck myself.
to get of my high horse and stop acting like a princess.

you know what!
fuck you!
i should have told dad to leave to pass out at southlands.
i should have told him to leave you there to attempt to walk home.
instead of driving around for 45 minuets before you finally got in the fucking car.
do you realixe how sick you make me?
how much i hate you sometimes.

i can;t do this anymore.
i will get a job and i will get emancipate.
and when i turn 18 i'm going to move across the world and you'll never have to see me again.
you'll never get a chance to disappoint me again. to make me cry.

do you know how embarrassing is was to have to drag you out of there with someone i had just meant and my boyfriend there?
not that you care.
your to selfish to give a fuck.
UGH you are pathetic.

oh! and dad.
you need to grow some fucking balls and tell her to gtfo.
she needs it.
tell her to go to rehab.
cos if you pick her over me again, you won't get another chance.
ever.

i can't talk about this anymore.
i'm getting angry.

part three. stupid bitch.

you, you know who you are.
STOP STALKING MY SHIT.
you are creepy as fuck and you are intensely pissing me off to the point i'm going to find some way of getting in contact with you and telling you if you keep treating my boyfrenn and me the way i do, i will beat the shit out of you. and i'm not kidding.
and if you think i'm scared of you, your fucking crazy.
i'm done with you referencing me in you blog.
GROW SOME FUCKING BALLS AND SAY IT TO ME!
your so pathetic it's fucking ridiculous.
you won't ever do anything to get in between us so stop making a fool of yourself and back the fuck up.
i'm over your games.
i'm over your fake personality.


part four.

i love you but the fact that when i needed you most and you weren't there just made me really sad inside.
that's all.


part five.

i said somethings to tommy last night i haven't been able to say to anyone ever.
some things i never wanted to admit.
never wanted to say out loud.
i hate i finally am okay with your decisions
because i don't want anyone else feeling this way.


i can't bring myself to blog anymore.
so this is all for now.
not as long as i though.



lovezzzz.
-Alisha<3

ohh life. :)

You're now chatting with a random stranger. Say hi!
You: Good horror movie! GO! :]
Stranger: stick your finger up your butt
Stranger: shutter island
Stranger: fuck me on elm street
You: mmmbaby.
You: thank you. you actually participated.
Stranger: now shoe me them tits
You: show me that dick!
Stranger: excuse me?
You: ...?
Stranger: ok fine :)
You: your my new bestie just so you know. :]
Stranger: oo kinky...
You: you know, fosho
Stranger: ooo kinkier...
Stranger: how are we besties?
You: cos your awesome. :) and i love you.
Stranger: how can i be your fuck bud.. i mean bestie
Stranger: lets do this hardcore
You: do you believe in god?
You: hardcore to jesus music!
Stranger: why yes...yess i do
Stranger: you wanna do it hardcore to jesus music?
You: yes, yes i do.
Stranger: hmm how wil this work?
You: we're gonna listen to jesus music while i show you ma tits. ;)
Stranger: :O that would be so cool, ok send something and then music
Stranger: ...right? we are besties?
You: 10 INCHES SOFT?!
Stranger: mhhm and your tits?

Standing There With Nothing on, She's Gonna Teach Me How To Swim

We had fun on chat rooms. :D You wish you were this boss.

--

You: Hey
Stranger: hi
You: How are you?
Stranger: im fine thank u
Stranger: hw bout u
You: I'm pretty dandy.
Stranger: so whats on ur mind
You: Well i'm thinking about worms with afros. what's on your mind?
Stranger: so?
Stranger: the zulu tribes f africa
You: why?
Stranger: r u a girl
You: I am. are you?
Stranger: fortunately not
Stranger: wats ur name
You: Nancy. What's your name?
Stranger: abby
Stranger: u 4m?
Stranger: u gt me waiting girl
You: what 4m?
Stranger: location
You: london.
You: you?
Stranger: chat with me only 4 god sakes
You: ...what?
Stranger: usa
Stranger: dont chat simultaneously with 2 strangers
You: i'm not. your the only person i am talking to.
Stranger: u were taking a long time 2 reply
You: Oh, sorry. What kind of name is Abby for a boy? No offense.
Stranger: its abhishek, my loved ones call me abby
You: Am I a loved one then, cos you told me your name was abby? where are you from?
Stranger: i told u usa
You: i meant like where is your name from.
Stranger: ur a slow typer
You: sorry.
Stranger: oh it is an indian word that means crowning
You: i totally knew you were indian. :)
Stranger: hw
Stranger: dont disconnect
You: cos your name reminded me of indians. but idk why.
Stranger: u hate indians, right
You: umm, noo. pretty down with the indians. [:
Stranger: so wats the problem
You: there is no problem.
Stranger: i
You: i what?
Stranger: i dont no ur asl
You: 17/london/girl. asl?
Stranger: where in london
Stranger: type faster
You: in london.
Stranger: faster
You: calm down boo. dang.
Stranger: sorry
You: it's fine. so how old are you?
Stranger: 19
Stranger: whats the time there
You: 8.
You: in the morning.
Stranger: that means ur telling the truth. i respect u
You: ohh alright. what time is it where you are?
Stranger: 1340hrs, london is 5 hrs 30 mins behind us
Stranger: faster
You: ohh, like military time?
Stranger: could i have ur phone number
You: that's a little creepo, i don't know you that well you could like come to my house and kill me.
Stranger: mine is 9545374399
Stranger: and i have a descent upbringing
Stranger: so i wont kill u
Stranger: i may love u though
You: haha. well i'd still feel weird giving my number out to some stranger in the website.
Stranger: fast darling
Stranger: so u dont trust me
You: i don't know you...
Stranger: u can trust me
Stranger: i promise
You: ... no
You: because that;s weird
Stranger: give me a call then
You: no.
Stranger: pls
You: why?
Stranger: this is hw friends become
You: not really. i meet my friends at like school...
You: not random phone number exchanges
Stranger: seee i really gotta go. i could have talked 2 u but u refused.
You: if you write me a poem, i'll call you
Stranger: beauty is something that cannot perish and yet it seems a lie
Stranger: by thinking of a certain person u cant get him if u try
Stranger: ??
You: ?
Stranger: call me believe me, i dont want 2 go but i have 2. pls
Stranger: believe me
Stranger: bye
You: goodbye
You: my love
Stranger: call me pls
You: ok
Stranger: love u
You: i love you too. i'll call when you disconnect
You: i promise
You: i saved your number
Stranger: i believe u. u wont let me down
Stranger: bye

--

Stranger: 15m
You: i love you and want to be with you forever and ever. don't ever leave me.
Stranger: Asl?
You: love has no age, location, or gender.
You: oh, but i am a girl
Stranger: Well at least m or f. Then I'll never leave
You: f
Stranger: I want u
You: do you love me back?!
You: i want you too!!
Stranger: I do
Stranger: Facebook?
You: I never thought that this would happen so fast... here we are like two minutes into a conversation, and the love is so deep. this will change our lives forever!!

--

Stranger: I'm a guy looking for female nudes! wanna trade pics??
You: YES
Stranger: cool you first?
You: jaykay
You: lolz
Stranger: im still sending you mine baby

--

Stranger: male?
You: female
Stranger: from>?
You: usa
Stranger: nicer
Stranger: nice
Stranger: age?
You: 17
You: yu?
Stranger: 22
You: you*
Stranger: male
You: from?
Stranger: miami
You: do you jam to the song by lmfao called i'm in miami bitch?
Stranger: lol
You: cause i would.
Stranger: its the top song on ipod
Stranger: where ur from? what state
You: colorado
Stranger: wow
Stranger: that high
You: yeah lol
Stranger: u like the snow?/
Stranger: aspen?
You: oh hell no
You: never been to aspen.
Stranger: u ever seen dumb and dummer
You: yeahhh.
Stranger: that y i know aspen
You: haha. it's like... the rich people part that no one ever goes to unless they live there.
Stranger: ohhh
Stranger: i want to live their
You: it's snowy, too snowy.
You: even in the summer.
Stranger: wow
Stranger: cool
Stranger: what music u like??
You: everythinggggg.
You: you?
Stranger: lady gaga?
You: YES
Then he disconnected...
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And Alisha doesn't know what the fuck she's talking about :p

-Lanna <3

i know that you may love me, but i just cannot be with you like this anymore, Alejandro.

dear world,


so...
lately i have been in a crappy mood.
my dad has just been a huge dick and i'm always getting yelled at.
or being told how awful i am.
or being told that everything is my fault.

i'm over it.
i keep wanting to just get up and walk out.
but where would i go.

on a happier note:

i want to go undies shopping wiff andy soon. [:
cos it's gonna be lots and lots of fun!

and hopefully tomorrow i'm gonna go hang out wiff tommy<3
and then lanna will spend the night and we'll make cake and go swimming. :) haha

i gets a new phone in like 20 days and i'm so frickken excited. :D
droid?
imagio?
eyeonknoww. :p

i'm just rambling cos i don't has anything to say. :p

i've become pretty close with someone lately,
or at least i feel we have.
i like it, it's nice to have someone to talk to.
they make me feel like they care.
[:
it's a nice change.

anywayss.
uhh this is all. :)

OHHWAIT!
My birthday is in 40 days!
:DDDD

lovezzzz.
-Alisha<3

PS. Tommy needs to write the blog he said he was going too!
So when you read this, just do it! :D

a b c i c u w x y don't u c me too.

dear world,


hehe
pathetic little biotch.
[:
you make me laugh.
whine whine whine, that's all you ever do.
no wonder your life has turned to the way it is. :p

oh and no matter how many times anyone asks me, i don't think i should tell anyone who this is about.

my boyfrenn has reception again and it makes me happy. <3

lovezzz.
-Alisha<3

oh baby dream about it.

dear world,


i haven't blogged in like two weeks.
i kinda forget about you.
plus you cause me problems sometimes. :p

i'm gonna be happy.
if i focus on it, it'll happen.

i'm excited about new phone time.
i keep looking at phones and getting all happy. :D

htc imagio?
droid?

i can't decideeeeee. :o


do you know what i want?
i want you to tell me that you miss me.
i want you to call me just for 5 minuets just to say hi and that you love me.

-end sad part of the blog.

i'm really happy about getting closer to andy.
he's been keeping me happy lately.
making me laugh.
he's super dooper amazingly fantasticle! :D


anywayssss.
i made cheesecake last night. :) es yummy

lovezzzz.
-Alisha<3

ohh.
ps. i'm working on a new story.
i'm excited about it.
i'm glad i started reading again.
3 books so far this summer. WHUTWHUT. [:

the name of the game is humiliation and thanks for your admiration.

dear world,


i hate when i feel like nothings gonna make me not feel sad.
-end.


lovezzz.
-Alisha<3