i'm sick of this feeling. it's making me sick.

dear world,


so theres something i would like to say.

i have been thinking about you a lot lately.
i see you on facebook and i miss how good of friends we used to be.
i wish that i could just call you, but i can't.

we used to be able to talk and talk for hours
but now, it makes me feel weird.

i can't put a word on the emotion because i don't know what it is.
it's just strange
and something i never felt when we used to talk.

it's hard for me to see how different we have become.
it's hard to think about how much you once meant to me and how far we have drifted apart.
you were my best friend long before it became anything more.
and i want to be friends again.

you were there for me through some of the hardest times in my life
and it hurts to know your not there for anything now.

i don't know how to fix it.
and i haven't been able to tell anyone i feel this way.



on a different subject.

i'm terrified for summer.
if you get a job and work everyday,
when will I ever get to see you.

i can't do it again where i see you twice in a two and a half month period.
it'll hurt so bad.

i miss you already, even though i see you everyday.
i want to just hug you everytime i see you
and hold your hand, but you never get my hints
or maybe you just don't want too.

blehh.
i feel awful.
being sick is so shit. :|


lovezzzzz.
-Alisha<3