5 dolla' FIVE dolla' foot long! :D

dear world,

the concert last night was so amazing. :)
i love going to concerts with you, especially when slow songs play and we just hold hands and look cute together. :)
awhh i'm on loveee<33

i dyed my hair ginger today. :)
i also put pretyyyy fake nails on. [:
i feel prettyy<3

lovezzzzz.
-Alisha<3

haha my dad just yelled i will blow your fucking balls off get out of my way!

lets spend tonight on top of the world

i'm a bad person.
now i feel bad. :(

i feel stupid because things were amazing with us and now i feel like your mad at me.

blehhhh.
i hope you come.
i really hope you come.

i love youuu.
lots and lots and lots<33


alisha<3

you left a hole were my heart should be.

dear world,

:(
done crying over this.
i feel stupidd.


lovezzz.
-Alisha

and the air is thin and it blows through your skin and it feels like something is about to begin

dear world,

i can't admit to anything.
i let my thoughts consume me and i lie and tell everyone i'm open.

you don't know my head.
the inner workings of my brain drive me insane.

nothing feels right anymore.
i have a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach.
i feel like a terrible person.

because i'm lying to all of you.
i can't tell anyone what i really am thinking, because admitting it would feel all to real.
i wonder why i feel this way.

because i love you.
more then i have ever loved anyone else.
more then i can ever love anyone.
and i want you to know how i feel.
i want you to want to know about me.
i wanted to be on that list.

i'm sick of somedays and eventually.
i'm sick of wondering what will happen.


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this stupid poem class has me getting all emotional.
i keep thinking and writing.
and i hate what comes out.

all i want right now is your arms around me.
i feel so sad and all i want is a hug and sweet words to make me feel happy.


lovezzz.
-Alisha<3

formspring.me

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/alishalovesyou

sad enough to say that alone i can barley light a match but together we can burn this place down

dear world,

i feel crappy.
cramps and being tired are kicking my ass.

i want it to be saturday.
i want tommy to come over on saturday.
but who knows.

i got paige suspended. :)
YAY me.

lovezzzz.
-Alisha<3

hey, go fuck yourself. :]

dear world,

you know what fuck you guys.
my life does not revolve around you or your schedules.

sorry i inconvenience you cos i want 30 minuets to get ready.

fuck off.

other then that i had a great day. :]
and a great yesterday.
and a great couple of days.

lovezzz.
-Alisha<3

valentines day :]

dear world,

i love valentines day.
i love my boyfrenn.

he's amazing.
today was amazing. <33

i actually felt like your mom liked me today, it was great.

thanks you for the cuddlez and kisses.

amor y besos.
-Alisha<3

be my valentine?

dear world,

i really hope i get to see tommy on valentines dayy.
or else i'll be really emo that day.

i'm glad i asked michael to come sit with me at lunch.
he made me happy again.
:]

i had a crappy day, then a good day, then it got crappy again.
now i'm good laying in bed watching supernatural.

anyone else think i'm exciting?
:)


lovezzzz.
-alisha<3

Pourquoi blesse-t-tout si mauvais ?

dear world,


i feel like i have been avoiding you.
i haven't wanted to put down in words what I have been feeling.

un.
i feel like i have been putting all i have into my school work because that is the one thing that no matter what i do, i can do well in.
it's the one thing that doesn't always take a constant effort on my part.
i feel like i avoid talking to anyone in classes and i just stay focused on work because i don't want to fall behind in the one thing that i am actually good at, mostly anyway.
i hate that my dad and my mom and my grandparents are always giving me such a hard time about school work and how i'm not doing that well when i am trying my hardest.
but when they say things like this it makes me feel useless and like i can't do anything right.
maybe i cant.

deux.
i hate that there is this gap between us.
i hate that you don't ever ask me whats wrong even when i drop so many hints that i'm not okay.
i hate feeling like i want to cry every second of everyday.
i hate that things, no matter how hard i try, are still the same between us.
i wish that i believed that you trusted me but i don't.
i hate that i repeat the same pattern over and over. complain-talk-pretend it's fine-explode.
that's the story of my life.
i hate that i feel ugly and stupid and like i'm not enough for anyone.
why is there nothing i can do to make anyone feel like i'm enough?

trois.
i want you to want to talk to me.
i spent this entire night telling myself i wouldn't text you and hopeful you would text me,
but you know what you did.
nothing.
it's 5 minuets to 8 and nothing.
is it really that unnoticeable when i just don't talk to you?
cos i know when i don't talk to you,
it's like part of me isn't here.
and you know what,
i am that girl that makes valentines and gives them to the boy who couldn't care less.
i hate that i've spent all this effort and all this love into this painting because this is what you said you wanted.
i thought it would make you happy.

quatre.
and on top of it i just spilled my guts to a kid i've known for two weeks.
while i balled my eyes out.

lovezzz.

-alisha<3

i can feel you all around me, thickening the air i'm breathing.

dear world,

i think people have it all wrong.
i think that love doesn't hurt.
i think that all the things you feel when you are in love,
all the extra emotions are the ones that make you hurt,

i think love is the only true emotion that is so pure and forgiving and perfect.
i think love is the only one that can take away all those other feelings.

i think that i'm so dependent on you.
and i'm scared sometimes because i don't want to change it.
i'm okay with needing you as much as i do.

but there are times when it feels like every cell in my body is begging me to be near you,
when every atom in my skin needs you.
and when i can't have you,
it's like all the tiny atoms break and it's crushing.

it's a heavy weight put in your heart knowing that when you want someone the most,
they can't be there.
and when you can't think of anyone else but them,
they can't be there.

it's terrifying to know that your existence is based upon someone else's

someday, things will be different.
someday i can tell you i want to cuddlez and you'll be right there next to me.
and i won't care where we are,
or anything that happened before that moment.
because you'll be holding me,
and that's all i need.


lovezzz.
-Alisha<3