legit.

why are things never fair?

sometimes i wonder why i try so hard when people just fuck me over.
i'm so lonely sometimes, but i have to be strong.

i don't want to be the crazy one,
the one who cuts,
the one who commits suicide,
the one who makes your life so depressing.

but it's like no matter what i do, i don't know how to make you love me like i love you.
i've put everything out there so many times,
and i feel like it gets me no where.

i feel like i need to either be on the brink of suicide for you to care.
i'm sorry, i thought my life was pretty fucked up. i'll try to make it worse for you.

i think about you and my whole body shakes.
it's like an earthquake inside of me and it won't stop.
and i don't know why it's there but it's like i'm ice cold down to my bone.
did you realize that you made me this way?

i want to be that person in your life that makes it worth while.
but i figured out now, that it's asking WAY to much.

you choose awful company, but maybe that's were you belong.

one day,
your gonna realize,
that all you had to do was love me like i loved you.

don't freak.
this may not even be about you.
but then again i could be spilling my guts and cutting out all the names.

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-Alisha<3