let's talk.

i wrote this last night, when my brain was turned on overdrive.



i wanna be close to you again.
i feel like nothing serious or actually important has been talked about for days maybe even weeks.
i don't say anything anymore.

maybe it's because i haven't felt anything in weeks
nothing passes me.
i'm a wall and i don't know how i became this way.

i ache to hear your voice, telling me things.
i need the silence while i talk because i know your listening.

i'm sick of the carefree front, even though it's real sometimes.
i want to know were i went.
i lost it somewhere, maybe that's fine for now.

you should ask me, what's going on.
i think your scared.
or maybe you just don't care.

maybe i'm falling and the harshness of reality is beginning to sink in.
that's an awful thought.

am i crazy or are you slipping away?
i thought i had this tight grasp and now i think that this is all slipping through the cracks.

this feeling of being ice, is a welcomed relief.
at least i know that something in me is still feeling, other then when you are around.



sometimes i wonder what is happening in my head.
and i wonder if when people read these blogs they know that i'm serious.
and not just stringing words together to sound insightful.

That's all for now.
If you read this, let's talk.
you know who you are.

-Alisha<3